Things are moving so fast at the moment. I'm exhausted. There are so many aspects to choosing painting for a living as opposed to a hobby or just for sheer release. I think I've written before that I'm torn as to whether I want to have that life or not.

So many of us get nervous when we have to meet people or go out and do things new. I say that because I've spoken to a lot of people and they all agreed. I had a gallery in New York accept my artwork and want to represent me. For most artist's the words "New York" and "Representation" being dream words right? ... but can't they just represent my paintings only? :) You need me involved in this? It's such a fine balance because I so want my art to be out there for the world to see, but I really don't want to be out there at all. I have to fly to New York next weekend and I'm nervous and anxious. My paintings of expression means I'm ALREADY out there. Already in a pretty vulnerable state. Now I have to present myself too... like I'm anything!!!!

I have a book show tomorrow for The Valley of Rhyme too in Knoxville. There's supposed to be 10,000 people showing up and I've got to talk. Oh my! If we really were that social, wouldn't we have so many paintings?..... An act that requires us to be alone for so long.

Please pray for me to be calm if you have that gift. Have a great day.... and you.... meaning people.... quit stressin' me out! :)

MEMBERS COMMENTS VIEWING 1 - 4 OUT OF 4 COMMENTS From: Deb_Magelssen 06/02/2008 13:36:01 No worries-and yes, you need to get out there- Exposure equals Success!  So, stop being so shy and let your self be known, go for it!  You have been blessed,  so don't throw the blessing away.   From: georgia 05/30/2008 20:03:43 you are someone - go show the world what you're made of! From: LeslieJean 05/30/2008 17:03:34 Well, Ok...what to say....Thank you for the comment left on my site. I was grateful to receive it....Now after looking at your work and your site, I am speechless. I've been letting life/things keep me from the studio. I often doubt myself. "Normal" people don't relate to my work. (Guess I don't hang in the right circles!?) Wanting to make things that people will actually buy - but will working in that vein dilute the little time I have for my real work? Anyway, congrats on the way things are going. As for the stress - its always the worst just before it lets up. You're very talented and an inspiration. I hope I can continue to move you with my work. And learn how to use this site better, so that maybe I can get some more feed back. Thanks for the lift! May your days continue to be filled with wonder and awe. - LeslieJean From: ricmon 05/30/2008 11:07:37 Hey Adam: Relax bud. Sounds to me as if you are stressing yourself! Mebe you should go back to one of James w Henry's blogs a month or 2 ago. He spoke of just this problem. Basically he said "if they like it they like it; but if they hate it then why get upset? Everybody's different." You can't please all of the people all of the time." Yours is some of the most beautiful work on this site; and if I were you I'd be very proud. Rick