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Art in America magazine
DATE: 05/25/2008 12:47:56 / MOOD: in love
The irony of art (for me)
I have a lot of paintings, particularly for someone who doesn't think he's painted all that much in the past few years, but I often get plagued by my inner thoughts. Wonder if the right 'judgmental hat' is going to see my work and say, "He's crap." Wonder if I have had too many styles in my lifetime.... or even wonder if someone is going to love what I've created and try to force me into the commercial world of art in a way I don't want to be forced. I imagine becoming the machine, pushing out art that all looks the same and everyone is happy but me. The cook with the cookie cutter.
Before we've 'made it', I guess many artist's wonder if they've got what it takes.... I wonder if I do. Wonder if I want IT. How do you get the art famous without the artist? Ah wishful thinking in a world that wants to glorify self. I remember that scene in "Pollock" when Ed Harris is at the gallery with his work in a hustling and bustling area and you can tell he just doesn't want to be there. I'm sure many if not most artists can relate. Let's face it, if we really were such social butterflies, would we have so many paintings???
This morning I was looking through "Art in America" magazine. May edition. Not being a big reader I was looking at all the pretty pictures and found such comfort in all the art in there. So much diversity. Tons of effort and labor in one painting and next to nothing (seemingly) in others. For the first time I found peace in my peers, which is unusual because often I've felt so inadequate compared to you. YES YOU! I have such respect and feel so honored to have this gift of being able to confidently create, even if I (at times) are less confident to present. I'd love the opportunity to stand by you as my comrades. May I stand by you?
I have this thing in my head sometimes that wonders if I've worked on my art enough. How can it be valuable if I've not toiled and sweated. I've pushed out this piece with a need, like pooping and now I have to stick a price on it? I'm also so attached to the work now, because it is of me, like a child. Birthed and nutured. (I thought I just said 'pooped!') It's instantly historical and related to me. I have to sell is now?? Are you kidding? I don't even know you!
As I continue to look through the magazine I realized I find sense in a painting that looks 'easier' to produce, (from a perspective of labor, not mental production) because my heart's desire is to learn to relax. Detailed works, however amazing, have to surpass toil for me, and very few do. I just get exhausted for the creator viewpoint ( and think back to when I painted Valley of Rhyme) I'm at a place now where I need to see something less stressful. Mark Rothko.... ahhhhhhh.
It's amazing how important I'm finding the 'why' of a painting is over it's actual existence. Our words of explanation become as important as our work. Such an incredible phenomena, to the point that you could have a totally blank canvas in front of you and if explained, it as amazing worth to so many, and I see it INSTANTLY. I can't get over how insane our journey's are from a rational mind... and how crazy the market is to feed into the work's journey too. Have you seen some of the prices of this art in "Art in America!?" What a life... what a world... can't you see I'm IN LOVE!
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The interesting phenomenon known as 'women'
DATE: 05/22/2008 17:42:04 / MOOD: happy
I love this site. Filled with so many talented creatives. Not only in art form, but talented in their way of appreciating art too. This site is built around presenting and representing. All of us wanting to share, wanting to matter. No?
But today an attractive lady decided to view my art. I am someone that deeply analyzes my emotional states. I find the way that God has decided to internally code us beyond fascination.
I looked at her art page and the painting there was interesting, but not as interesting as I was interested in HER!
There is something about meeting someone new for me. I see the best in people first.... always. To me you are all the highest of the high and then life sets in a picks you away to be messed up or whatever and you become more 'normal' and 'handleable' than your original state. It's a downward slide, but a healthy one.
My girlfriend is the opposite. She doesn't think much of you to start with but as she learns more she grows in respect and awe. Like I said. Fascinating!
I want to thank 'her' for this buzz today and for the reality check that art is so full of life but it is NOT actual life. I was amazed in that moment of it's irrelevance. Men can be so easily distracted, it borders pathetic, unless you are aware of that and take it for what it is.
I'm just going to post this. I've got somewhere to post this but perhaps I'll add more to this later.
Gb.Ax
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ok ok.....!
DATE: 05/20/2008 11:30:22 / MOOD: happy
No no. I've not sold out and gone illustration, I was just having a lazy day and decided to upload some things from a long time ago for a change. I probably won't keep them up, but at least you can see I wasn't always the crackpot I am today. It took years of perfection! :)
Hope you enjoy them. :)
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Overloaded
DATE: 05/20/2008 06:24:01 / MOOD: don't know
I'm creating at the moment and at times I feel the very thing I'm trying not to do is the thing that hinders that confidence to put medium to medium. I love it and hate it at the same time.
For some reason most of my paintings seems to have meaning.... not that it requires them necessarily, but I've come to expect that they do. It's frustrating then when you come back and you start to create again, even if you've only been away from it for a matter of weeks, because I find myself looking too deeply into it TRYING, FORCING out meanings. So ends my morning rants. Have a good day everyone.... and don't force it. Just sit there a while and it will come out all on it's own. Ax (like poopin'! (sorry. couldn't resist.))
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Come Chat!
DATE: 05/13/2008 14:57:22 / MOOD: full of life
Let me start by stating that I'm not affiliated with Scuttlebutt in any way. I just seem to miss a bunch of you in the chat rooms and as I was making up my page, I thought to myself, man... this would have been so much easier if I'd been able to talk this through with someone on line.
So anyway if you have an AIM or ichat id come on line and put me in
my id is: ASBAdamParsons
It's pretty straight forward. See you on line perhaps. If there's anything I can do to help, I'd love to try. This is such a fun site. Adam :)
Working out this site.
DATE: 05/12/2008 19:46:32 / MOOD: happy
it's been a busy day. Most of it has been spent trying to work this site out. How many of you out there are able to dig into the code as well as Keemo I wonder.... Not many.... My hat is off to you brother!
I want to thank everyone for their kind words today and encouragement. I've had little to no sleep but I feel like I am still filled with excitement for the potential of this Scuttlebutt and the future for all you artists.
Love your potential customers people. Learning to love is TRUE ART. GB
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I love painting because.....
DATE: 05/12/2008 00:30:10 / MOOD: in love
I can't sleep. I've been thinking about so much today. Thinking about the potential of this site.... Thinking about the amazing talents that I've seen on here today. It's like a myspace, but filled with goodness and I'm in awe and gratitude to the creators of the idea, but to "us" for filling it up.
I love to paint. I always have enjoyed being productive. I find it near impossible to relax unless I'm in the process of trying to accomplish things.
Lately however I have been particularly happy and I want to explain why. Call this a 1am ramble.... (How on earth I'm going to get up at 6 and walk my dog..... !!)
I believe that I've found a new art movement. I was in another forum recently and I had a bunch of artist's calling me "wacky" because of it.
Although my art to many of you may appear to be abstract or categorized as such, I disagree. There is not a piece of my work that is a random pattern. I see it as a story, and a very defined story at that but this is what I've found to be new......
Lately I've painted a picture and when I show it to friends or potential buyers they are seeing something in the art that I'm not seeing. Although the painting is 'completed' and signed by me, they seem unwilling to accept that as the case. I believe my art gives people not willing or wanting to pick up creative tools and turn them into creatives. Their mind is the brush and the stories that come from them are astounding. What's more, once they have given that story it imprints (almost) onto that work, adding to it. "Blown" is the best example of this. It's like the painting can't stop creating because everyone who sees it keeps adding to it.
Ever sat on the toilet and stared at the floor and seen a face? Ever looked up at the sky and seen something in the cloud formation? This is sort of what I'm talking about.
This blog may come across as kind of stupid. It's late, for me... although I see some of you are still awake.... Night birds. but I'll leave you with these thoughts and perhaps edit in the morning.
Good night and God Bless. I am so thankful for this day because of you all.
Adam.
Do you really want to "make it"?
DATE: 05/11/2008 15:02:08 / MOOD: other
I have been filled with contemplation recently about the strivings of my heart.
I think it's the human nature for us to push forward and for us in turn to want what we don't have, only to find that most of the time that we can have it... that we don't want it. In the past I've been guilty of this.
My battle is to whether or not I really REALLY want to be a commercial painter. By this I don't mean to sell out or to paint just what others want, but I mean although I've been trying hard to 'make it', now that it seems that it could happen, and I have a large body of work... do I really want it?
I paint because I have something caught in me. For the most part I have no idea what it is, but I feel stuffed and cramped unless I get it out. This is why I have so much art, but what if I have a gallerist wanting me to produce another 30 works, in effect sucking the poop out of me rather than me poopin' cos I gotta go!
As so many of you out there are striving to 'reach the top', I just want to ask you if you've thought about the same things or am I alone in this?
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You're all I've been looking for.....
DATE: 05/11/2008 10:00:01 / MOOD: full of life
First I would like to say thank you to ArtScuttlebutt for giving the opportunity for all of us to communicate like this. I think it's important to recognize all the blessings we are given... the small and the large ones. I've been reading their magazine and I found it fascinating. You know when you are walking around thinking, why isn't there a magazine about this or that... and but it never comes around?.... well for me it appears to of! I am not just a struggling artist... I just struggle in general. I love to create. I fell into my profession as a media designer for no other reason than I had no money to frame and present my work properly, so I built a free website to try and get my art out to the world. Turns out that the site got noticed at the time and not the art so all of a sudden I'm now designing sites and my pwason.com has grown and grown too. Anyways. I get off track... Can't you tell? I just wanted to be proactive in introducing myself to you and I'm going to look around at all of you later..... except for YOU of course.... and see what's going on. Have a great Sunday people. I have a lot I'd like to ask your opinions about..... so get ready! GB
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