Meds
I wish they would give more of a mood selection. My mood: calm
The doc has me on Tramadol for anxiety/depression. It's a wonder drug. It's a pain medication similar to vicodin but it's not as addictive and it isn't a narcotic/controlled drug...so he prescribes it for my mood disorder. I've tried over 30 different medications for depression and anxiety with no sucess. I take 2 tramadol and I'm good for about 6 hours.
I have been addicted to the painkiller vicodin for about 5 years now starting when my 15 year old niece murdered my boyfriends stepfather. I coudn't sleep, had massive headaches and was taking vicodin for the pain...and to well...take the edge off the streess too. I was instantly hooked and have been ever since. I buy my vicodin from a friend for andywhere from $3-$5 a pill. Luckily I have always had the money but now the funds aren't flowing as freely and if I don't quit this now, I will become broke and poor...something I never thought I could be. Addiction is ruining my life. The tramadol I get a script for and it kills alot of the withdrawal symptoms...restless legs, chills, nausea, headaches, insomnia and just plain out bad mood. I know if I'm not careful I could become dependant on this too.
As I sit here I can feel each nerve lay down and rest...one by one. It's like I'm being wrapped in a warm blanket or like a gently hug from the one I love. No worries, no pain, no feeling. Like the song...comfortably numb. That's how I feel. Now I can go create some art.
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