There is so much going on in my head. I feel almost as if I can actually feel my brain inside. Like feel it separate from my skull and the rest of my body. I feel it functioning and calculating, almost like I'm viewing it as a third party. I worry.... who doesn't. I crave and yearn for things, for others and for myself, but have no clue why or how I wish it to be.
My wife sees that struggle in me. Sees that I'm hidden and when I'm not, I naturally push myself back so that I become so again. I've spent so much of my life going out of my way to not interact, yet people see my plastic smiles as genuine and warm. People don't know me... but I not sure that I want them to even if they could. Am I not acceptable or am I not self-accepted?
"The Request".... My wife's desires are so deep to know what's going on in there.
Adam, this is a wonderful painting. Thanks for sharing it and your insights. They really mean a lot to me. It is a genuine struggle to balance the part of us we're willing to share with the fear of what they might think of us if we truly open up. One of my mask paintings was based on a similar vein of thought. Please check out the painting and what I had to say about it at: http://www.donmichaeljr.com/blog/2008/09/03/the-perfect-hiding-place/.
"The Request"
