Back to the Source

By: scottys Mood: don't know Date: 08/02/2008 16:07:27 Music: None

I've found myself somewhat "stuck" this summer and trying to find my way back to my art.  I spent about 3 months not doing anything but working (at my job), marketing and framing for upcoming shows.  I slipped away from the creation of art.  And then I tried to get back to it.  Always a struggle but I know I will eventually find my way but it might be a different place than where I left off.  And then this past year I have had sales of my art and I did not want that to drive me but I found that it did.  I needed to do some small pieces to take the place of the ones that sold.  And with that in mind I just could not get anything to come out right.  The only time that I can is when I throw all caution to the wind and tell myself that it doesn't matter.  That I don't have to do anything - that there doesn't have to be an end in mind.  then I create something that I like.  I have to trick myself almost.  I told a friend that art is like golf for me.  The harder I try the worse I get.   Practice is good but then you have to let it go and relax.  And it will come.  You can get in the way of both golf and art.

So now that my vacation from school is about to come to an end I feel that I have finally found my way back.  But it is okay.  I'm also ready to go back to school and kids.  I've been a little into my own head and too isolated in my studio and I need to get out and think about something else- someone else.  Be around the energy of the kids.  Teach them something and just be with them.   Its good that I have both I guess.  Many times I wish that all I had was the art but then when I do - I get a little too much tunnel vision and need to get away from it.